That is what I weighed when I went to the doctor Tuesday. Are you serious? I weigh 173 lbs!!! Good grief. I haven’t been to the doctor since January after my appendectomy and so to see my weight go from 153 lbs to 173 lbs is a bit of a shock, to say the least. I mean that is 20 lbs gained in like 2 months. Is that even normal? I swear I pack on the lbs. when I’m preggers like nobody’s business. I don’t even eat excessively. I eat exactly the way I do when I’m not pregnant but when I am pregnant I seem to gain all of this weight. Seriously, what is the deal? I am so glad I’m getting “fixed” after having this baby. I don’t want to have to do this again. EVER! I’m not one of those crazy people that likes being pregnant. I hate it. Despise it even. I am just so uncomfortable and absolutely hate the way that I look while pregnant. It is cute for others but just isn’t my cup of tea.

Also, I’ve been having these terrible mood swings lately. Hubby says he doesn’t want to be around me they are that bad. I don’t mean what I say and I hate this feeling of just being mad all the time. I don’t know if it is a combination of the pregnancy hormones, stress of life, being utterly miserable in my own skin or the fact that we are having another boy that is the reason why I’m so out of sorts with my true self lately but I’m sure some of those factors come into play at some point or another. I’m just really not feeling like myself. I cry at the drop of a hat and can’t seem to find anything to make myself happy. I’m just sick of being pregnant, that is all. I hope hubby and the pnut understand that I dont mean the harsh words that I say that is mere pregnancy hormones talking. What worries me so much about when I get into these spells [and that is what they are a spell, it is like I can’t get out of it, I’m in a evil trance] is that I might end up having post-partum depression after the baby is born.

Ok, enough rambling. I’m going to try to take a shower to perk my spirits up.