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…In our First Dance Video! Click Here to check it out!
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From the request of Drea here are some more photos of my home. Today we will explore the living room.
Then to the left [if you are looking at the door] we have the hallway then the entertainment center. We just bought this entertainment center from Wal-mart it is part of their customizable “Get it Together” line of furniture. You mix and match pieces to your liking and space. We chose 2 bookshelves and the tv stand. We wanted the connecting piece that goes between the two bookshelves to tie it all together but they didn’t have it in the store.
From the left of the entertainment center in the corner of the room is my desk area. It is a little junky lookin, so pardon the mess. You can tell I was “working” when I took this photo.
To the left of my desk is the fireplace. My mother painted that screen/fireplace cover for me before I left “home”. We originally found the screen at a yard sale. It has a basket of fruit on the backside. The lady said she paid $500 for it and never used it. We bought it from her for $50. Talk about a deal. My mother offered to paint something oriental on the backside because the other picture doesn’t match my “little asia” decor. She did a wonderful job. Shouts out to MeMe!
To the left of the fireplace is the backdoor to go out into our HUGE backyard [photos of that is yet to come; it is raining today]. Here is a view of the living room in its entirety if you were standing by the backdoor looking in.
Last but not least in the center of the room we have my sofa and the infamous black rug. We’ll you’ll see just a corner of the black rug and half a head of the bean. Behind the sofa is the kitchen of which has already been posted about HERE. You’ll have to wait to see a photo of the black rug until I get the vaccuum back. And I try to take a photo of the front window but my flash won’t go off because of the sunshine so you’ll have to wait till tonight for that one.
There you go, Drea, that is my living room. Any other places you would like to see? P-nuts re-done room? Guest/P-nuts bathroom? Or my room perhaps?? Those will posted at a later date for right now I am going to enjoy my day off.
[edit] Oh wait….I just found a photo of the black rug on my computer that I had taken when we first moved in. [/edit]
I’ve been up since 4:30 this morning. I’m running on roughly 5 hrs. of sleep. Why you ask? Hubby so graciously informs me last night around midnight that I have to keep the bean today. Why bosslady didn’t call and inform me earlier on in the day is beyond me. But anyway he then later explains that the store has a visit tomorrow so she postponed leaving for her trip another day so that she could be present during the visit. Ok, fine, whatever. He later states that bosslady will be dropping the bean off at SIX AM. I usually don’t acquire the bean until 7:30 in the morn. I was so mad. Not only was I mad because bosslady instead of calling and telling me…the one keeping her kid…that I will be working tomorrow but that I have to get up extremely early to keep him. I asked her this morning what time they would be picking him up. She told me she was leaving the store after the visit. That it would be a short day. Her husband was supposed to get off between 12-2pm to pick him up if she hadn’t done so already.
I just called hubby and he said that she left the store over an hour ago. He thinks she went home to pack before she comes and picks up the bean. *Grumbles* I thought this was supposed to be a short day. Here it is 2pm and no sign of the parental units. Thankfully the little ones are taking a nap so I get a few seconds of peace.
On the car note…My father called this morning and offered to pay to get the car fixed. The repair man came around 9:30 this morning and took the battery out of my car to the shop to charge. He also stated that he would be back around 1:30 or 2 pm. Like I stated before it is 2 pm. No phone calls from the repariman, no phone calls from the bean’s parents. What is with people not contacting people now a days if they are going to be late? Where is everyone’s manners? If you are going to say you are going to be somewhere at a certain time then, be there! Sheesh!!! Is that too much to ask. One tiny phone call to state that you are later than expected.
Oh and did I mention that hubby took both of my vaccuum cleaners [don’t ask why we have two] to the store THREE DAYS ago and still hasn’t brought a single one back. Why did he have to take both of them? Why doesn’t the store have their own vaccuum cleaners? I don’t think I’ve showed ya’ll my living room yet, but I have a black area rug in front of the sofa with asian writtings on it that requires vaccuuming everyday. Now how am I suppose to vaccuum without a vaccuum. Going on four days now without vaccuuming that rug and it looks horrible. It is the first thing that you see when you walk in my house and the center attraction for the rugrats [aka children] hence it needs to be cleaned daily. I hate it. I’m not a clean freak by any means but when something is dirty you just gotta clean it. It bugs me to no end. I put a blanket over it but all that does is hide the secret goo underneath. I WANT MY VACCUUM CLEANER!
Ok, I think I’m done venting. You may now resume to your regularly scheduled program.
This morning the car didn’t want to start. Hubby is mad/upset/stressed because we don’t have the money to fix it and he had to call one of his employee’s to come and pick him up and take him to work. We don’t know if we need a new battery, alternator, or if the starter is messed up. All we know is that we have a car, practically dead in our garage. I can understand why hubby is so stressed/upset about the whole situation. He is the “breadwinner” of the family so he has alot of responsibilites riding on his shoulders.
I just moved out here almost 2 months ago to be with him and to start our new life together. Moving costs alot of money. So we are just spent. We have no money saved up because it all went towards the cost of the move. I took on a “nanny” job two weeks ago, and frankly don’t make a whole lot on a weekly basis. My plan was to take on the job and take all the money that I make and save it for times like this. In life these things just happen. It is good to have “spare money” around so you can get the car towed and get it fixed.
I just didn’t have enough time. I haven’t had enough time to save enough money for a situation such as this. My goal was to have $1,000 saved up for “emergencies”. But in this short amount of actual “working” time I have about $100. We all know that is not going to fix a car.
So yet again, I have to call my folks with my tail between my legs and beg ask for some money. How humiliating is it to ask someone for money? You are already in the dumps because you can’t provide financially and then you have to call you parents to bail you out. I’m an adult, afterall, a married one at that. I shouldn’t have to call mommy and daddy to bail me out of a situation.
I just wish I had more time. More time to save up what little money I earn so that I won’t have to call someone to bail us out of a situation.
I just want to get ahead for once. As soon as we get “on our feet” the next week life throws another curve ball at us and we are back on our butts in the mud.
I know life is full of situations like this. Afterall, life wouldn’t be called life if it was all easy living. I know there are going to be hard times. I just wish I was a little more prepared to handle them.
I can tell just by the look on hubby’s face that he is really worried…scared even. He doesn’t want to let us down. I understand that….I really do. But it is times like this that we need each other most. We gotta stick together to get through it. Life is tough and my husband and son are all I got.
When hubby is stressed he pulls away. He doesn’t like to face situations head on. I on the other hand try to figure it out….try to find the solution. Today after coming in from an unsuccessful attempt at starting the car he told me that he wants me to “go back home”. He said that it is going to get ugly and that he wants to deal with it by himself. Now I know good and darn well that shipping your wife and son off isn’t the answer to the problem. We are a family, families stick together. Like I said before he doesn’t want us to see him fail but no one is perfect. Stuff happens beyond our control. Whether I am here or there it isn’t going to make the situation any better or worse. I want to be here to support my husband and help in any way that I can. He just doesn’t see it. He shuts down completely when anything goes wrong. That is one of his characteristics that I despise. Don’t get me wrong, I love my hubby to death and would never want to be with anyone else. It just angers me to see him shut down like this. I just don’t know what to do half the time. It makes me sad and depressed to see him like this. I feel so helpless.
I am so tired and groggy this morning I just can’t seem to wake up even though I’ve been “up” technically 3 hrs. now. I’ve drank coffee, took a shower, and even went out in the cool 40-something degree morning air. I just can’t shake the sleep.
I just have to get through today and tomorrow with the bean and then I’m off for a whole week. Bosslady is going out of town, well actually she is going back home for a boss’s meeting with the company. She is taking the bean with her so her family can see him while she goes to the meetings. Leaving me to just lounge around the house and recooperate from the past two weeks. I’m sleeping late and holding off on housework for at least a couple of days. My body needs rest.
Any ideas for waking up? I’ve exhausted my list and I swear I could drop off at any minute. What time do they take their naps again? Ha Ha 
Sesame Street comes on in 40 minutes which will give me a good hour to hang up all of my winter clothes. Like I mentioned earlier it has been in the 40’s in the morning, so fall is definately here. I have to wear long sleeves if I go outside. The highs have been upper 70’s, lower 80’s. I welcome the fall. I love to turn off the AC [saving money] and just open all the windows. Fresh air does the house/you good.
Side note….I feel bloated. I dunno if it is close to that time of the month or what but I’ve been feeling especially “large” this past week. I’m just not feeling my body right now. I’ve gained a couple of pounds because I’ve been drinking regular sodas instead of water or diet sodas. And walmart doesn’t sell my green tea supplement here in my new store. Like I stated before I’m just outta whack. Tired….Fat….and desperately need a break from it all. I’m constantly taking care of others and never getting any time to myself.
A couple hours after I get the bean for the day he decides to take a poo. I go to change his pamper and it is green, gooey, and oh so smelly. I do my duty and clean him up. In the process the bean decides to roll over on his side in attempt to eat the bathroom rug. Then I saw it. What appeared to be black and blue bruises all over his tiny little booty. I immediately started freaking out. I ran to the phone and called bosslady. At this point I’m shaking in fear. “Did I do something wrong?” I asked her if something was wrong with his bootay. She said no and put me on hold. Uh, Hello! I’m freaking out here don’t put me on hold. She comes back after about 5 mins or so and explains to me that nothing is wrong with his booty he just has “blueberries”. The bean is multiracial just like p-nut is but he is just a little bit darker and has thin straight hair. She said that it is a birthmark that is characteristic of african americans. According to her they come and go. I swear last week he didn’t have a blue butt. She said her hubby and his family has them. She said she had never heard of them either and started freaking out when she first saw it as well. I tried to do a google search on it but couldn’t find anything or any photos. Here is the one photo I found that sort of resembles his bootay, the mark isn’t that dark though, think bruise-like, faint black and blue marks. The poor kid looks like he has been beaten but it obviously doesn’t hurt or he wouldn’t be able to sit. Scared me to death. You’d think that someone would let a caregiver know if they gave birth to a child that is part smurf!
Well it is 6 something in the morning and I’m up and dressed waiting on the bean to get here so I can start “work”. I’m sooooo tired. I’ve had a starbucks double shot this morning but I’m still not fully awake. I will eat a piece of banana bread that I made yesterday after I type this. I’m so not a morning person, it is rediculous. My body on the other hand is getting used to the early mornings. Now my body clock automatically wakes up at 5:45 every morning. I on the other hand snooze till about 6:10, hoping to get a few more winks. I’m not alert, I’m just here. 
I’m supposed to be off tomorrow and monday. I welcome my off days with open arms and closed eyes. I’m definately sleeping in as long as the p-nut will allow.
I pray today that the bean is better than he was yesterday. He was such a pain, I was about to pull my hair out. We need to establish a routine and do it fast. If anyone remembers what their 6 mos. old routine was or is please let me know! I can’t remember what p-nuts routine was or I’d attempt to go by that. Also, are premies usually real needy and cranky all the time? I know the bean was a premie and p-nut wasn’t so I was thinky that might be why his temperment is so sensitive? I dunno, do you have any input??
Well, I’m going to go lay on the couch for 5 mins in total silence before the bean shows up. I’ll update later today to let ya’ll know how it is going.
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Well bosslady and the bean decided to show up at my house an hour late. I wish someone would have called and let me know so I could have had another hour of sleep. 
Right now as I type this, the bean has been sleeping for exactly 3 1/2 hours 
I know, I’m just as excited as you are.
Oh wait…
I hear something…
It’s the bean! He’s up!!!
Well now I have to cut this update shorter than anticipated. Back to work I go [/edit]
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The bean’s daddy just came and picked him up. I’m officially off! Pardon my excitement. Now I can finish getting my work done that is after I put up my feet and indulge in a yummy piece of chocolate! Since the bean decided to take an extra long nap for once, I did get some work done. I finally swept/mopped the kitchen/living room floor. Took the trash out. And vaccuumed the living room/kitchen rugs. I washed a load of dishes [haven’t put them away yet] and started two loads of laundry. The rest of the night looks a little something like this…
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The bean is…dare I say it…a PAIN! He is soooo needy! DRA-MA-QUEEN! One problem with watching someone elses kid is that you can’t teach them the way that you think they ought to have been taught. I think the bean everytime he cries has been picked up, because the second he gets upset he just whines, and whines, and WHINES, at the top of his lungs. Like someone is killing him. All he did was roll over. He thinks it is the end of the world that he rolled over, or is in his bouncer for more than 5 mins. P-nut was such a good baby. I feel sorry that this kid is so…bad!
Right now as I type this, the bean is sleeping [he’s only been here for 2 hours] and the p-nut is watching sesame street yelling at the top of his lungs…ELMO! I put the bean back in bedroom this time so that p-nut’s loud talking wouldn’t wake him up. The bean’s first nap is usually only 30 mins. I’m praying it will be longer today. I’m also hoping that his “needy” behaviour is because he has a cold and doesn’t feel well. He won’t be here very long today. His Dad is coming to pick him up early…thank goodness! It is only 9 am and I’m already having a bad day.
This is the hardest work I’ve ever done! I should have asked for more money
